More than enough

tomorrow, he's birthday. hmm i don't wna mention anything bout what ive been wanting to say so i guess i'll wait till ater. either before or after my birthday? i dont knw anymore! how long am i suppose to wait omggggshhhh. 2 months already and still not ready? its annoying and frustrating >< if it still doesnt happen then might as well use up my birthday wish on him, agh. hurry up an get your freaken act together, why are guys so slow

from the start.

my effing G O D. how long does it take fahk. first its "oh im not ready in a relo" then it was because of nav and NOW? what now? thought after the nav thing is sorted it'll be good? but wait.. its still im not fucking ready to be in a fucking relationship. i remember that this thing all started on the 11/8 and what? now its like the 3/10 what the fuck am i doing. like seriously. we've gone far and i don't wna just throw it all away. but i don't wna be like yeah my friends were right. i knw ive waited to long but ugh! what angelo said "maybe what he's looking for isn't what your looking for " maybe he is right. hate this. birthday soon and i know what i wna wish for. or what i want as a present :P

ahhh!

havent blogged in awhile so i thought i'll do it now while i have time T_T' schools are stupid to put everything in a bundle. assignments and exams fah. exams start this week and i still have assignments due ==' stress stress stress! ahaha. well other than that, parents giving me a hard time. friends are always there for me. and ze boy? there is change but not much. oh well. what's jess got to do? haha

DEAD!

omgsh man yday was the best ever BUT not the alyssa bit. idk what happened but i drank to much..3? last time it wasnt like this. i think cause i didnt eat thats why! but yeah felt like shit, my head was soooo heavy and i said soomething to angelo that i shouldnt have. dam! idk one fcked up indo LOL fahh... avissa wasnt that high she was liek dead first then she sobered up. but omg so not fair cause i lost the bet with angelo ahhaa. and kuan! man i miss him ahaha i was calling out his name LOL! and i have a bruise on my thighs and leg.. maybe from falling? LOL overall best weekend :)

weeeee!

heeeyheeeyy maybe its not the end? hahaha well im not sure yet just gna wait abit, but he said sorry and told me that she won't be in the picture no more... is he telling the truth? idk but well wait and see. wooo! 3 more days till the party, so excited cause you knw what? theres going to be happy water! hahaha just hope my parents come back late and that alyssa's parents wont stay for long :S cause on the phone her dad sounded like he was gna stay till the end ! hopefully not , we'll wait and see. anyways mood : better today

The End?

can this be the end of it all? nadine added her on facebook and well hey, she spoke to her in a nice manner and she took out on nadine. he comes to me mad because apparently i told nadine shit. so what  now? i can't even tell my bestfriend anything? it's not like he doesn't tell his friends stuff too. she says she has nothing to do with him. What bullshit is she trying to say? If she wasn't in the picture, me and him wouldn't be in this place right now. All i wanted to know from him is that, is there EVER going to be me and him? love's not suppose to hurt.

birthday!

WOO! avissa birthday today! happy birthday to her. can't wait till i see her today, and give her my card hahaha the best ever. stayed on the phone till like idk but i didnt sleep till 2 or something, we were so scared that her battery was gna run out but yeah it didnt hahaha. counting down from 11.59 till 12 and bam! happy birthday :L today i need to give out more invites! i hope the poeplei want to come, actually can make it >< an too bad that he's not going to be at school today:(