from the start.

my effing G O D. how long does it take fahk. first its "oh im not ready in a relo" then it was because of nav and NOW? what now? thought after the nav thing is sorted it'll be good? but wait.. its still im not fucking ready to be in a fucking relationship. i remember that this thing all started on the 11/8 and what? now its like the 3/10 what the fuck am i doing. like seriously. we've gone far and i don't wna just throw it all away. but i don't wna be like yeah my friends were right. i knw ive waited to long but ugh! what angelo said "maybe what he's looking for isn't what your looking for " maybe he is right. hate this. birthday soon and i know what i wna wish for. or what i want as a present :P